I am breaking my silence to share two new releases which I hope will herald a new beginning for me: An article at Reality Sandwich on Dave Oshana & the Transmission. And an interview with Doug Lain, recorded two months ago, on matrix living and the dream of enlightenment.
Peace Out
6 comments:
I enjoyed listening to the first half of your Diet Soap interview. You are a smart person, a thoughtful person. You seem sincere in your quest. You seem serene. Please carry on.
I enjoyed the interview, it made me think about my attitudes to my own seeking. I've noticed that the times I've felt the most despondent and depressed have been the times when I've given up on seeking. There's times when I've thought I'm deluded to even hope for enlightenment. Also I've reasoned that if reality really is nondual it follows that the whole of the universe would have to
somehow conspire to bring about my enlightenment and what influence can my mind or my seeking have on the whole of the rest of the universe? So all I could do was wait for that grace which would probably never come. Also I've reasoned that if reality really is nondual it follows that the whole of the universe would have to somehow conspire to bring about my enlightenment and what influence can my mind or my seeking have on the whole of the rest of the universe? So all I could do was wait for that grace which would probably never come. Also there's plenty of times I've felt that seeking is quite neurotic, selfish, or self-obsessed, because one is continually quite distracted pondering one's identity, and all it's done is create an irreversable split between my awareness and my body which makes it difficult to function with any sense of enthusiasm or involvement. But I was recently listening to a teacher - Rupert Spira which gave me quite a useful model which gave me a different understanding on the seeking. He said that (as far as I understand it) that one goes through a process of identifying oneself as the witness, and this is like a half-way stage, which can feel quite intolerable. After having inquired into one's identity one concludes that we are not a thing that can be observed we are the awareness that percieves - we are the witness that is no thing, but this is intolerable because we still feel seperate, we just observe ourselves floundering in a world that we can no longer fully feel involved in or believe in. He says we have to go deeper so we see or percieve that awareness or our Self is everything not no thing and that I suppose is a kind of mystical state that can be experienced always by the enlightened person, or so I imagine. Other teachers mentioned that some seekers give up and live in a kind of apathetic, dispassionate state instead of continuing to seek. Anyway listening to the interview and thinking about my own seeking it occurred to me that even if seeking gets one nowhere and perhaps even prolongs the false identity, I do at least enjoy contemplating these subjects, I think seeking also creates dopamine in the brain which at least gives one some enthusiasm for life and also I've definetly noticed that if i really contemplate and try to absorb these teachings it seems I'm sometimes rewarded afterwards by glimpses or at least a flavour of some enlightened perspective, for instance as seeing the manifest world kind of hanging from an underlying, everpresent, awareness, whereby the underlying screen became more prominent and real than the objects hanging on it, objects seem flat like pictures instead of three dimensional, and this perspective seems more close to the truth or to home. So anyway, I'm glad I heard the interview and glad to have space to express these thoughts.
I thoroughly enjoyed the Diet Soap interview. I really liked the rigorous but playful interplay of ideas between you and Doug. You do indeed sound very happy these days....thanks for providing me with an hour of quality IPod time!
thanks everyone for sharing
Hello Jason,
I respect and admire the way your path is unfolding.
I work with a Teacher who works through powerful Transmission and lets it do the work. I have been with him for 4yrs and now shakti is active in me all of the time. The Transmission works-- even so I find that I still find ways to avoid it's raw power. Nevertheless, it has dramatically changed my life. So many will be unable to understand this most fundamental relationship between Guru and disciple - the Esoteric Relationship in Consciousness. Obviously this is because in the west that relationship is almost fully stigmatized due to the projected fears about cults and the continued prevalence of deluded neo-advaitic and fundamentalist bizarre Christian teachers and false prophets, etc. When a real adept shows up, he make not look like what everyone's preconceived ideas about what he's supposed to look like or act like. On top of that many won't figure out how to use that help. As you know it takes a long time to know the Truth of the universe and Reality itself.
What those who are quick to judge don't realize is that we even know that the Adept/Siddha doesn't have the monopoly on That, we haven't been duped into someones eccentric messianic trip. We have been fortunate enough to have happened upon the Esoteric dimension beyond the words, emanating from a human being who accomplished, or rather was accomplished by Existence-Consciousness-Bliss itself.
Namaste,
Swaprakashananda.
Awesome post.Thanks for sharing.This is so nice.
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