some of the comments are getting so personal and vindictive that I am wondering if it's worth it. This is proof of something, but what? If you attract what you are, then I seriously don't like what I am!
you pay much attention to what you are?
not sure i understand the question
Why does not masturbating for a week make most things passable like mincing words, and doing bad, serpentie things while on your back?It has become more apparent to me, in order to relieve pressure in my flooded temple, I have to become childlike, This Time, be eaten.I CAN save...the dream...save...sister in limbo. Instead I'm prophecing about the comings and goings of Gozer, what a fucking asshole!
Just wondering if you pay much attention to your humanness or if you tend to spend more time focusing on the super-human qualities which you wish to have (or believe that you have). I would say that most people who are doing their best to do the transformational work spend more time on the latter which is why they feel that they need to fight for justice all the time -- for their own good name and whatnot but also for their "cause" which usually has to do with getting others to see the "truth". This means that we would draw to us that which we feel we must fight (the meanness of the misinformers) and also draw to us those whose minds we feel we must change so that they will be less mean -- all too often so that we may appear honorable and so that we may receive pity from the self and/or the other (because we know that it won't go well). The meanness of this desire for honor and glory does attract more meanness. Ask me how I know?There is no doubt though that a few of those comments are down right nasty -- and would send me sideways too.
http://youtu.be/p3gG1q-WyM4"in a nutshell"
Pueky: that's a very good question and argument, and there's no doubt that my engagement to JdR and even more personal entanglements which I won't mention here have forced me to increase my focus both on my own humanness, and on that tendency within myself to want to be superhuman and aloof from it all. JdR (and other) have made it painfully apparent where that tendency in me was leading, and therefore, have forced me to become painfully aware of my own humanness. Since the attempt to escape/transcend one's humanness entails disowning the parts we don't like, it makes sense that those "nasty" parts are now coming back to me and being reflected by humans out there who, in their own ways, have cut off from what makes them human (compassion being the no. 1 article). And the piece which sparked the "attack" was one which addressed how we use entheogens to try and transcend our humanness and feel superhuman, so it all fits neatly together. And of course, the voices don't lie: I AM an egotistical asshole, because we all are; it's just doubly galling when it's even bigger assholes telling you that.
My humanness says I should DO things for my neighbour. My godliness says I should BE good, sake my neighbour.My geekiness says I should pimp my gadgets. Watching myself, I REALLY feel like a predator, but not one with cool abilities.My condolence says I should take the time to create or pick out a Get Well card and write something that I REALLY feel she needs to hear, be happy in your body, your life. She's not gonna hear me say it either, because that would be awkward or condescending coming from me, or not postponing to find the right down-to-earth moment to say it would be like your grandma writing you a letter telling you to quit smoking. Fuck That Shit, fuck all this shit, I AM GOD (THAT) I DO NOTHING FOR A LEAKY BOAT SAVE BELIEVE IN THE WORD THE BODY OF CHRIST WHAT REDEEMS ME.I'm a cunt.
Shekhinah Spark 720pThen Aldini put one electrical conductor in the dead man's anus and the other at the top of his spine. Forster's limp, dead body sat bolt upright and his spine arched and twisted. (sigh)Shekhinah The Age of Invention 720pShekhinah Revelations and Revolutions 720pCan I go (now), K? I would appreciate you blocking my comments with not a word from you, thank you.
I need a "love letter" to my temple.
to become a wizard, a shaman a dreamer of dreams.. at the end you need to stop wanting it.. and just be here..
I felt like a walking penis today, quite composed, undaunted and daring, alas predator-like, some pain in the small of my back from the male and ever-present albeit dampened desire to be with other birds.I feel like a Dr. Frank-IN-Furter - A Scientist (hahaha I like that appendage there) checking myself out Green Latern style...OR NOT.Imagine being eaten, consumed by your wildest dreams, McKenna DMT shit, that's what heaven on earth might like without hard chemical dependancy.Soul, WHAT eats you, carves you out, being the serpent it is not vanilla, problem is it is non-stopping, so you cannae exactly stray from your choice of WHAT eats you without paying the price à la karma aka dog pile leading to some ruffled feathers.I once told a female that if I anger I need to masturbate to ejeculation, misconstruing one to be turned-on by aggression, not it!Uneasiness loads the gun, uneasiness fires the gun, real easy like.
Your teeth, fascinating cautionary tale.
No nod for soundless'? No? Okay, fuck it! Let's go! Larry David is wearing 9 on his team uniform.The Cow goes (over the) M-O-O-N. The Cat goes Nyan. The Dog goes nine nine nine ...
JESUS FISHSTICK CHRIST, sitting here like a zombie zonked-out on His wine, whatever that may be, tasting a slice of heaven on the odd occasion, knowing full well how not to treat this wine and how to keep it and how to lose it.Why... why pfft, we're so obviously blind to being blind, and we've lost our leash on our seeing eye dog star. This is not working for those remaining behind - is it the rapture already?I think it goes by what we're NOT looking at (and we're not talking flesh but principles) that gets feasted upon, of his own discord what one becomes hungry for and staves off the banal flavours/frequencies, thus gains the coherence of the serpent/wave, ghost of Elvis? Quantum principles eh I don't know anything.When your whole body/soul lights up, any way, why does our Satan continue to matter to us? Because Satan is said angel of light.Even that brain dead documentary series, Ancient Aliens (and the Undead), is beating the same drum, connecting every man and his dog to ufoes/chariots outside of himself.So I made an unaccepted comment over at the secretsun that I fully expect to be bull-whipped by the sun's hot surface flashes snapping back into my body until my dogs acquiesce to the straight and narrow path, it's gonna be a wild ride so, don't look back, son of man.
And of course, then, there is the matter of the crows gathering on the neighbouring tree branches surrounding your home, ready to strip your flesh to the bone per completion of your gnosis, wahey, tippy tippy day day, sure mightn't be before you encounter your waking dream-life, dark half Doppelgänger so, this is but talk of the devil, for real. The sparrows are flying again...
I think it's quite a a couragous position to take , I too have experimented ethogens during the nineties but choose too give it up, despite the fact that era was hugely influential on me, i tend towards the idea that using ehtogens and psychedelics are a very blunt instrument, whereas using rythmn, meditation ,chi gung, tantra,sex, lucid dreaming etc to access altered states of conciousness require much more discipline and hard work but the results are perhaps more longlasting and the process more healthy - having said i some time hanker after the old days
Hello Jason, just visited the site after a period of 'business' which culminated, I suppose, in smoking a heavy dose of Salvia on All Hallows Eve. I've only just started reading your post on RS but the amount of similarity between what you say there and how I felt after the 'trip' is high. I felt, specifically, that a part of me died and I will have to work very hard if I hope to ever get it back, if that's even possible. It was a largely 'negative' and disturbing experience, though I have come to see a silver-lining in that I want to pay more attention to my present life and body. I was specifically taunted, mocked and reprimanded for wanting to see, as the entity put it, 'Fairy Land'. Once I was there I couldn't wait to leave, but I also knew that what I saw would never fully leave me...However, since I am a fool I am not certain that this applies to all psychedelic experiences. I am particularly wary of Salvia Divinorum, especially when smoked, and then when smoked quickly, in large amounts (salvia also has a tendency to lodge itself in my psyche in such a way that even when my experience was something I'd never want to relive I want to smoke it again, out of curiosity or whatever it is). But I do recall other more 'positive' (i.e. transformative without being habit-forming) experiences on Amanitas, etc......anyway, I'm going to finish reading your article and the comments and maybe add in over on RS if I'm not too late.Just wanted to say thanks for being so timely once again and giving me some support where before there was none, on this issue at least.
Amazing.And amazing how you & I begun as allies, then became adversaries 9and even over similar issues as to the validity of hallucinogenic experiences?), and now seem to be finding a new, more informed kind of alliance.Post at RS, please do, it desperately needs some intelligent input, and it would be great to engage with you there. Good luck wading through all those posts!
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