Wednesday, June 10, 2009

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The thing about the Mother is if she doesn't surrender and sacrifice herself for the well-being of her children at the time, then she becomes a negative mother, a Gorgon. She drinks alcohol while I am in the womb, she doesn't breastfeed me, and she is not a present mother. She is half the time drunk, the other half insane. She is not what you'd call a good mother. I don't regret or resent the kind of mother that she was, but I don't have any illusions about it either. She doesn't either. She's not able to let go of being a mother because she feels that she screwed up, so her regret is causing her to hold on to that... but now it's too late to make amends, and it's not really necessary either.

What the Mother needs to do now is be exactly what we need her to be, which is not a mother but a warrior... To meet her death standing tall and looking forward without flinching and without clinging... To show her children how it's done... to surrender to the power of Pluto and be transformed.

Whether she's going to do this or not depends, to some extent, on how much we can let go of that part that is bonded to her. That part will dissolve into nothingness in time for a greater dissolution to come.

23 comments:

John Lennon said...

Mother, you had me but I never had you. I needed you, you didn't need me. so I just gotta tell you... goodbye, goodbye...

Bowie said...

Don't fake it baby, lay the real thing on me
The church of man, love
Is such a holy place to be
Make me baby, make me know you really care

Make me jump into the air

Jade said...

There is a theme here.
Mothers who are cold and distant, yet not necessarily bad, often produce sensitive ("un-masculine", almost androgynous) male sons. These offspring, firstly feeling ill-fated, can accept what has happened and what is, leverage their unique wounds and transmute them into spiritual awareness.

At first what seems unfortunate, is really a gift. Personal evolution and individuation can be painful, tension and suffering can be catalysts. The Mother was doing "the Work".

Wounded family lines are somewhat interesting. If you were a hyper-dimensional entity looking to manifest interestingly on Earth, (bear with me), would you chose an ordinary, boring, stable family where nothing happens - or one that forces you (the ego) to rapidly differentiate, self-analyse, transform and reestablish contact with the Self?

Sincere thanks for sharing Aeolus.

Billy the Kid said...

Billy, they don't like you to be so free

Billy Corgan said...

Well crucify the insincere tonight
Well make things right, well feel it all tonight
Well find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Anonymous said...

i would love to do a podcast with you
dan .

Anonymous said...

"Welcome to the Consciousness machine" NeoGnostic.SuperSaturatedSolutions.

Anonymous said...

Thunderbolts of Ecstasy,perfumed with droplets of eternity.........
Life undeniably rolls on with the unquenchable lust for Death and Serenity...
an all is perceived in the eye of the perceiver.
in the brilliant void,where all is one none and all, the dance of Love unfolds/is created by those wise souls...lol

Anonymous said...

lets find new ways to create/integrate!.....are we the rebel seers or what?!.....
r.i.p.

Anonymous said...

no i,m a little dawggie looking for GOD
NO i,m a real fragment of LUCIFER
no i.m just trying to erase my ego/satan
Real MEN Bond this way!....
no no no no NONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!
Wake up !!!!!!!!!!!!no i don,t want to..
p.s. don,t take this too personally...lol.!.....

Anonymous said...

Everybody is looking for...
LLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Monster Tonkster , get ready for se apocalypse ,it vill be black!

Anonymous said...

Chick with a Dick.. chill Babe , everything,s gonna work out just fine!,,,,well after everyone gets their just dues!,i guess........

Anonymous said...

I've just realized that i am not responsible for other peoples experiential loops/trips.and on that note i'm gonna say goodbye.
Thankyou Jason/Aeolus for all your inspirations,revelations,and im/personal transformations.Blessed be Angel! ,
love DivaDancer.

Goddessrocks said...

there comes a time when we all need to truely get that our Mothers only "birthed" us and it's the journey we chose for our own awakening and if even a small place in our heart was opened by the initial bonding or touch then our purpose in life is to continue to open...even in our suffering...for the greatest Love is to let go ...wasn't it a dream anyway?

Anonymous said...

in the name of surrender ...
in the year i was born...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FlUAxqQkmc&NR=1

Anonymous said...

continuing on in this mother thmeme...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHFK1yKfiGo

Anonymous said...

to be honest, i find the internet a little nebulous and obscuring often of the human spirit behind the lines,so to speak...the typed word is hardly the multi\\dimentional spirit that you feel within/without or the dancing eternity of ever fulfilling dreams before thee!....lol

Anonymous said...

a little light snack before the evening deluge.a bientot!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qIsohfkOn4c&feature=related

Goddessrocks said...

Dear Anonymous if you find the Internet nebulous and obscuring of your human spirit then share who you are and allow your spirit to be known and shared.....Isn't this what we all want CONNECTIOON?

Anonymous said...

CONNECTIOON?...love it...what i meant was , that it is very hard to spontaneously and holistically interact in a way that's more than just a bunch of passing ideas or a very limited notion of who you're relating to....sound and vision are a lot better!...anyway,take care,and have fun!...D.
ps the tv provided some defined channels as collective realities and now with the internet you can create your own! ...except i'm not sure if people are really any the freer .?or have any better friends...?....etc...

Goddessrocks said...

Actually I'm not sure either...my closest friends are ones I can touch and talk to however there have been a few CONNECTIONS through the Internet that have managed to reach into my heart and open spaces....that feels good. but generally involves some "getting" to know .... have a good one. do you have your own blog?

Anonymous said...

are you Italian?

then there's no excuse.....throw mama from the train....